I'm really thankful, really I am. I am thankful for life and health and a job. Nowdays, those last two are hard to come by. I have to keep reminding myself, however, that my joy is in the Lord and not in circumstances. The circumstances would have me depressed. I have to admit that by Sunday afternoon I was losing the battle against depression.
As many of you who read this post are aware DBBC has been in a capital funds campaign for nearly two months when you consider all the up front work necessary to get it off the ground. Last Sunday was the "Big Event." The day was to be full of expectation and prayer; and it was. We actually observed the Lord's Supper together in the A.M. Something that hasn't been done in years. The members came to the front to lay their 3 year committments in a basket. We had prayerfully set goals at 4, 8, and 12 million dollars. The amount raised would have significant impact on the future of Dallas Bay. The campaign was one of the most difficult things I have done in the 19 years I have been honored to be the pastor of such a great church. Personally asking for monetary committments is not my thing and does not easily roll off my tongue. However, I did it and followed the prescribed outline given to us by the experts to the letter of the law. So as I said; Sunday was the big day. So we hoped and prayed and fasted. The final tally was less than big. Actually, it was very disappointing. The total was ?.? million. (We wil reveal the total on December 7) That's hard to swallow, but given the economic crisis in the country it was not unimaginable. The depressing part was that only 37% of our church participated. That really took the wind out of my sails. I understand people not being able to commit to as much as they would like in better times, but to make no contribution is downright depressing. To not give up even one meal or soft drink a week to give to the campaign means I did a poor job casting the vision.
To everyone who did work hard, and there were many; and to everyone who did committ to the campaign; thank you. Your hard work and sacrifice will allow Dallas Bay to continue into the future. To everyone who did not; God bless you. You exercised your right to prayerfully not participate. To be angry with you would be hypocritical. All along I have said I will love everyone the same whether you committ to a three year pledge or not. I still love and appreciate all of you. I just have to come to the realization that the failure of the campaign is my responsibility. For what ever reason I failed to motivate enough people for the campaign to be a success. Much prayer and deliberation must be done by all of us now to determine the direction of Dallas Bay from this point forward. My prayer is that I did not allow the open door of opportunity that was before us to be closed forever.