Last post I wrote of my recent disappointment with the status of my faith. There was so much feedback from that entry I thought I would catch you up on my progress. Thanks to the many of you who said you were praying and would be praying for both my spiritual and physical well-being. I am certainly not where I wish or should be at this point, but I have noticed some improvement.
I have come to realize slowly over the years I have allowed more input into my life that is not spiritually beneficial. I enjoy talking finances and listening to talk radio. I am quite fond of 60's and 70's classic rock and roll. After getting the bad news from the doctor last week, I suddenly found those to be less than comforting. I was driven back to listening to more Bible teaching than just political or financial ramblings. While I still enjoy Fleetwood Mac and the Doobie Brothers, the words to their songs don't edify me like music with Christian lyrics. I also realized I was doing more and praying less. I have been spending a lot of time on my knees lately. I'm still not satisfied with the results and I have told the Lord as much. He still sits silently in the wings without a noticable move in my direction. I am coming to believe my problem may be more like the joke I used to tell. When an old farmer and his wife drove past a young couple sitting close to one another in an approaching car, it prompted the farmer's wife to ask why he didn't sit that close to her anymore? His response as he sat securely behind the wheel,"I never moved."
This week I go back to the hospital on Friday to have a test to look at my heart again. Based upon the results of this test I will learn what type of treatment they will recommend. Prayers are appreciated.